Grace Through the Fog

 Tuesday, August 23, 2011
(Meditation: Proverbs 3:5-6)
God, many times I want You to be on MY team. I want You to help MY will to be done. I want You to run interference, but I want to call the plays. God, forgive me for being in the wrong ball park. YOU call the signals. YOUR will be done in my life, as it is in heaven. In Jesus' name. Amen.

My day started out okay.  For one thing, I thought I was supposed to work 1 - 8:30 with the ladies.  When I got to work, found out I was actually going to be working with the new Program Coordinator and helping to train her (since I'm not a PC, not sure how that was supposed to work), AND I was working until 10:30.  Ok.  I can deal with that. 

I had previous plans with one of the consumers to go to Faribault to visit her dad's grave and out to eat at A & W.  I made sure all the meds were passed.  I made sure the new employee had supper figured out.  Very simple.  Put it in the oven and heat it up.  All she really had to do was spend some time with the consumers and get to know them.  She had a daily schedule to work with, but all the programs had been taken care of.

Too simple.  One of the male consumers, who is very attached to me, ran off to the grocery store and pushed carts around.  He was mad that I wasn't there and he doesn't do well with new people.  These past few weeks have been very tough on him because we've had so many staff changes.  I can't even begin to think of how much stress and sadness he's dealing with.  I should have known better than to leave the house, leaving him behind.  Upper management became involved, who went to pick up the straying consumer.

I came back to a hideous mess.  Everyone was in an uproar because I left the new employee alone, even though all she really had to do was sit with the consumers and get to know them.  Read their profiles.  Heat up supper.  But a large part of me knew I was in the wrong when I think about it from her perspective.  I apologized to her and let her know she would get all the support she needed during this transitional time.

And now I have a new responsibility...to do all the grocery shopping for the house.  Oh joy.  I do like shopping, especially when using other people's money, but when would be the best time to do this?  Should I take a consumer with me?

So I am not going into work again without God's wisdom and grace.  The drive into work is the best time to pray and ask for His help.  And He knows I need His help.  All the time.

Deep breath.  Today is over and I am safely home.  My peaceful place.

Most Assuredly Blessed,
Me