So Many Changes

There have been so many changes at work lately.  We have new staff (me and another guy are the only two originals left), new med sheets, new rules, new management.  Today I had my med certification pulled because there was a screw up on the meds.  I take full responsibility and have no excuse.  Now I have to take another med certification class and be recertified in passing meds.  I'm a smart woman...I just made a couple mistakes.  With meds, that's pretty serious.

I feel like a fool.  Now I have to find other staff to give meds because I'm not allowed to give them.  I need to get my focus back.  I really do love my job and it's a good thing I wasn't fired...I could have been.  I think I need to go back to the beginning and be very vigilant again.  It's easy to get complacent when you've been there awhile.

Home is wonderful.  I love being married.  I love the fact that there is one person in the world who will always be there for me, who sets me straight if I'm going the wrong direction, and who loves me despite myself.  Joel is the perfect man for me...the one I've been praying about for years.

I have found out a few things about myself in this marriage; things I need to work on.  One of those things is finding ways to be a help to Joel.  He had a document that needed to be mailed yesterday, so I put it in the mailbox (across the road from our house) for him on the way to work.  I get things for him when he's working on the computer so he can keep his focus.  It's really all the little things that are fun to figure out.  When I was single, I only had to worry about me.  Some of that still comes out. but it's getting better.

My favorite thing is when we go to bed and he puts his feet against mine.  His feet are always warm and mine are cold.  He a touchy-feely type guy and so am I (in private), so that works out quite nicely.I feel safe knowing he's next to me.  It's such a nice feeling.

Making tortillas for him now, so will chat later.