Well, that title pretty much sums it up. Between getting fired on the 6th of January and continuing to deal with health issues preventing me from working, this is getting old. I have gallbladder surgery coming up on the 27th of February, so hopefully that will take care of the health issues and I can get back to being gainfully employed.
I thank God for my understanding husband.
As for Joel, or love grows by leaps and bounds. It's such a spiritual bond; it's tighter than anything I've ever experienced in my life and nothing will ever come between us. We are forever together and that's such a great feeling. Yes, I waited over 50 years to find this, but it was totally worth it.
My relationships with my children are finding their niches as well. Ones that, I think, we're all getting more comfortable with. For a while, I didn't think some of us were going to survive, but we did and we're on the mend. I thank God and am grateful for His intervention. I love my children and grandchildren and great-grandchild so much...I don't think they have any idea how much. Family means so much to me, although I'm not sure the word "family" means as much to our family as I'd like it to mean.
When I was growing up, I always thought of our family as a close one. But as our family grew and had families of their own, I realized just how separated we've become. It saddens me to think holidays aren't spent together, neither are birthdays or other special occasions. I want it to happen, but since I'm not the glue that holds this family together, it doesn't get done. Everyone has their own lives now and I must accept that.
Can it be changed? I don't know.
A place to unload the worries of the day and celebrate the knowledge I am not alone in this crazy world!
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