I was going to use this blog therapeutically, but I realize none of those things that happened to me as a child and into my adulthood really don't matter anymore. The Bible says we are to forget what is behind us and to look to the future. That's what I'm going to try to do. If I can help someone with something specific, just ask and I'll give you my take on it. But I can't tell my life story without hurting someone and I don't want to do that.
I am really missing my family today. There's a thin line holding some of us together and it saddens me. Yes, I made several mistakes as a mother. If I could go back and change those things, I would. I resented my mom for being absorbed in her own problems and considered her an absent mom. Seems that I did the same thing with my children, too. I didn't recognize it for what it was.
I'm sorry for not being there for you when you needed me to be. I was overwhelmed with everything that was happening at the time and I didn't even know how to take care of myself. Thank God for my mom who was there when I couldn't be. And I don't mean to gloss over this and make excuses for myself. There are no excuses.
I'm sorry I didn't see what was going on until it was too late. I'm sorry you had to experience what you did and that you felt you had no ally.
I stood outside a little while ago and listened as the rain hit the roof. I love rainy weather. It's a cleansing of sorts and cools the air around us. It's a peaceful sound, especially if there's a little thunder to go with it. It brings me closer to God for some reason. I asked Him to heal our family and bring peace to those who need it so much.
That's all for now. Just know that I'm sorry and I love you.
A place to unload the worries of the day and celebrate the knowledge I am not alone in this crazy world!
I believe there is no perfect mom and we all make mistakes and that is how we learn some more than others but believe we should be.forgiven for our mistakes if we r really sorry. if people don't forgive we need to learn to move on and know we would of changed things if we could of. we need to forgive ourselves and just keep prayings others will forgive us for our mistakes like god does for us. You r a very good person val. very caring helpful and we all wish we could change parts of our lives but we can't and just got to forgive ourselves. I feel if we learned from our mistakes and sorry we r forgiven from god and the people we hurt should forgive us and make the rest of our lives together better and more happy. love you
ReplyDeleteThank you, Vonnette. Your comment means a lot to me. I have given this over to God and am trusting Him to take care of it. I screwed up, but He always fixes things if I ask Him to. He's pretty awesome, ya know! Have a beautiful day (and I love you, too).
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