Kaila

I am so hurt by your comment.  I've been through this before with Lindsay, but I never thought we would be standing on the same ground. 

Every few years I get to mourn the loss of a grandchild who turns into a know-it-all teenager and doesn't want me in their life anymore. Then six or seven years later, they come back and show love again. Problem with that theory is eventually I'm going to run out of years and they won't be able to get that back. I would save them the heartache of regret, but I can't do it for them. So, precious granddaughter...I tell you this. I have loved you from the moment I knew you were coming and I will always love you. You can have your teenage angst and tantrums and reactions to truth, but my love for you will never change.  My love for you is unconditional and I will be here when you return (if I can be).

These things are always such a process for me.  I truly mourn...losing the love of someone you love so much is physically painful.  I don't know why God made me such an emotional woman, but He did and my heart breaks easily.  

I want an apology, but I know I won't get one.  Yet.  Maybe I never will.  Did I hurt my mother or grandmother in this way?  I surely hope not.  If I did, I don't have the opportunity to say I'm sorry and that I love them.

I know I'm rambling...but sometimes that's just how my brain operates.  The more I process these things, the quicker I can move on.  I forgive you, Kaila.  In my heart, I will always forgive you.